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Date: 16.6.09 Time: 1:38 pm
Kay it's back after 3hours of d/c every 5seconds! I think im blogging more often then necessary, well cant blame me, it's like just facing dead stuff at home, brother doesnt talk but just irritates me for nuts, dad is taking leave and spending time with his newspaper, books and whatelse. Mum is due home tonight well. I need some space to rant and talk argh, i feel like an idiot now, typing and talking to myself kinda shit. Haha i meant it's really worth laughing at myself, crap i'm getting nonsensical already! Piano later sigh, dont feel ready for lessons all the time. Now i realised i cant study at home. Sometimes i dont understand why also, with everyone telling me so much, i dont know what i am supposed to do, what am i supposed to feel, it's like bottling up now. I cant show or tell everything, i dont wanna hurt anyone, well why is this so hard and complicated. I cant help but wonder how things would be so different if more was said. Well perhaps i cant just watch the whole thing, it's like deja vu, and the ending was bad. Life's a gamble. Labels: The beauty of words |