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Date: 4.5.09 Time: 10:05 pm
Every week there's definitely something that bugs me like argh, well well i'll just pray hard i'll survive somehow somehow. Argh i really hate blogging this way, the whinny complaining emo way or whatsoever you call that, i couldnt help it really. Oh pw, i dont know, it's like our group dynamics is at max alr. Hahaha thats why we ended up crapping more than doing work. Well haha grace i am waiting for you now to come online! Harmoc today was really harmoc, well i kinda miss sitting in front of the piano, facing those black and white keys, those black and white scores, i dont know, i really miss symphony and all that jazz all of a sudden, it feels empty, monday without those two songs, without krystal trying to sort out our rhythm and dynamics. Empty and weird feeling. i miss the concourse piano, the familiar place i spent most of the afternoons evenings and saturdays. i miss learning how to count mouthing it without going wrong and haywired, i miss wriggling my toes to tap the tempo, i miss the gush of satisfication when i started at the same time as section3, playing on the same beat as the horns, there's so much i miss about syf argh. Okay enough of this, i'm going to the point where i cant really stand myself already. Sometimes i wonder how strong the power of ignorance can be, sometimes i wonder will it make things better by ignoring, and let that feeling pass. You cant be always that strong to hold on to nothing, you cant always tell yourself that you're not breakable. You just cant look away now and say everything is fine. when they are not. |