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Date: 20.3.08 Time: 2:26 pm
today was damn typical, except for the fact i slept thru maths and eng. hey i managed to stay half awake in bio okay. after recess, went home >< learn a lesson people, never go school when you've a mc for that day, like me. craps. while waiting for mum just now, ms lam talked to me. makes me think alot and reflect on what the hell i've been doing? why my grades are like worst than stockmarket. yes i know, this time i've really disappoint everyone, high hopes pinned on, hopeless returns or however that phrasing is. stress as i am, yet idk i still feel very slacky. this time, i must point out, no one shall be blame but myself. like yeah, i have piano exam, i have this and that mtgs, and plus returning home super late after SAP. so what, even under these conditions, i dont think it's an excuse for me to underperform, especially to that extreme. all you know how to say is words that hurt me, words that isnt helping me. i dont want to wait until when it's too late. even my teachers can understand me better, they are there to encourage and support me. but think about you, what you did was only to demoralise me even further, stress me even more, like as if that's helping. i shall tell you it's not. note to self: no more computer during weekdays for march. no more computer from april onwards. that's reality aint it? because my worries are never ending. |